Saturday, May 14, 2016

I Choose Happiness

I just wanted to write a blog about my mindfulness journey, because lately I've found that I can't remember being this consistently joyful.

Mindfulness has been a long journey for me, I started dipping my toes into the practice when I was about 16 and then when I was 20 I chose to start really incorporating it into my life. I have had a lot of ups and many very low downs on my journey, but I'm at a place where I feel I'm noticing the benefits day-by-day, minute-by-minute.
I expect that sometime in the future, sooner or later, I will feel more disconnected from mindfulness and I accept that as part of an inevitably changing process. However, I want to capture some of the things I have learnt now whilst I feel in a clear place to do so.

There have been many resources I have used to support my journey and I thought I'd scribble down a quick (non-exhaustive) list of them here:

- Headspace (my real introduction to this practice)
- Yoga With Adriene youtube videos
- Andy Puddicombe books
- 'Building Your Self Confidence using Compassion Focused Therapy'
- Any and every CBT/Mindfulness book by Ruby Wax
- 'The Art of Happiness'
- My performance practice, especially comedy improvisation
- The work of Brené Brown
- 'The Life Changing Magic of Tidying' by Marie Kondo
- 'To Walk A Pagan Path' - Alaric Albertsson
- 'You Can Heal Your Life' - Louise Hay
- Volunteering
- Couch to 5K (from the NHS website)
- 'The Power of Now' - Eckhart Tolle
- Mindfulness colouring books
- Gardening
- Aromatherapy
- A body care régime
- Hairy Bikers Diet Club

I imagine I will write more in-depth reviews of some of these in the future, but for now I just wanted to give a quick idea of my support resources, incase anyone wanted some ideas of where they could start.

For instance, right now I feel joyful. I'm very aware of the warmth of my laptop on my legs, the soft dip of my bedcovers underneath me. I can hear the birds singing and can see the sunlight streaming through my window with cabbage butterflies fluttering around the greenery outside my window. I have the aftertaste of creme caramel black coffee on my tongue. I am aware of my family talking and I feel safe. This is enough for me. These things alone make me want to cry with happiness.

I should say that my journey has not been effortlessly easy or straight-forward. I'd say that joy doesn't come naturally to me - only I've learnt that it's our innate sense of being. To me, this means I have suffered from mental ill health and worked through traumatic experiences which have at times warped and tainted my outlook. I do not wish to go into detail about these now but I have had points where I did not believe happiness was attainable for me. As I imagine we all have. But it is.

I don't know in which direction I want to talk about mindfulness currently, but I wanted to open up this conversation. I want to extend a life force which is so precious to me into my blog and what I share with the world. It has shaped my present and future. I choose to extend hope and positivity.


  1. Living in the moment, rather than dwelling in the past or worrying about the future is a beautiful place to be:-)

    1. Oh definitely! I still have to consciously work on it all the time, but I'm getting there :). Do you have any books or resources you'd recommend? It's lovely to hear from you!